tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7569913672534981373.post5332848190719237934..comments2009-07-09T07:44:19.793-07:00Comments on My Daughter Lives: Journal post from Jan. 9, 2002Mighty Morphin' Mamahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03244716672872427829noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7569913672534981373.post-19628114321100467452008-02-12T06:36:00.000-08:002008-02-12T06:36:00.000-08:00I understand.We lost our baby, Masyn.We would have...I understand.<BR/>We lost our baby, Masyn.<BR/>We would have been due sometime this month.<BR/><BR/>I have all of these guilt & sadness feelings tucked away...somewhere in the back of my mind and heart. <BR/>There is sooooo much going on this month right now with my husband's health....just too much to even wrap our brains around. <BR/><BR/>...but I wanted to let you know---I also understand getting that unexpected pregnancy test that reads "pregnant"; & then not really knowing how you feel about it initially.<BR/>I'm soooooo glad that you wrote what you wrote about that....I hadn't otherwise told people that I wasn't exactly ecstatic when we unexpectedly became pregnant. My first feelings were guilt. I felt like I was talking away our son's infancy & toddlerhood---like I was somehow taking away his status as "the baby". But, within hours---I was excited. I was able to tell myself, "you're giving your son the gift of a sibling", and somehow able to let those guilt feelings go...<BR/><BR/>...and then of course, I felt guilty about not being excited...oh, the vicious cycle!<BR/><BR/>...anyway...<BR/>I'm at: <BR/>http://lifeisjustsodaily.blogspot.com<BR/>July 2007 was when we lost our Masyn & I blogged about it quite a bit during that time...Lainey-Paneyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07722187515774744428noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7569913672534981373.post-76961140413678553982008-01-29T09:51:00.000-08:002008-01-29T09:51:00.000-08:00I wish I had kept a journal throughout the pregnan...I wish I had kept a journal throughout the pregnancy, instead of the blog I have written since his death. How beautiful that you can go back and really know the excitement you felt. I'm glad you got your girl ;o)c.https://www.blogger.com/profile/02933776400434137451noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7569913672534981373.post-34881874970785550192008-01-24T15:03:00.000-08:002008-01-24T15:03:00.000-08:00Thank you for sharing this piece of your story. I...Thank you for sharing this piece of your story. I think you are brave to revisit these thoughts. Some of the most painful memories for me are all the "befores." It is hard for me to look back on being excited and happy and preparing and planning for twins. I look back on that person and she feels like someone else. I want to hug her and protect her from what is about to happen.Lorihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05528541804521203406noreply@blogger.com